They are mad at me.  Again.

Multiple people in my life, all wanting me to change.

They can feel it.  They can feel that I am fighting for my creativity.

What I realized tonight is that not only am I fighting for my creativity, I am fighting for my Life.

And it frightens them.

Are you in a similar situation?  Can you feel the battle going on?

Are you fighting for your creativity too?

Some people want me to have ” a normal schedule”. Some of them want me to quit writing and “get a real job”. And some of them just want me to sit in their living room and babysit them as they watch the Food Network.

Right now I am working on finding out how to be creative again. I used to have my own way of working, my own writing style, but last year I was left with an emotional Tsunami. So I have to begin again. Entirely from scratch.

I know I can seem like brassy bitch right now. I don’t care. I know I am in the fight for getting my creative life back, and I’m not letting go.  As JS put it tonight, I am a wild animal being threatened to go back into the cage of obscurity.  Well… I’m not going.

I can tell, you’re just like me – You are wild too! You have dreams inside of you, wild dreams yearning to break out. You have to create. It wants to come out.  You have a life to live, the life you’ve always wanted, and Dammit you’re going to live it!

The most important thing you can do is keep holding on to your creativity. Hold on to your dreams, your ideal life.  Don’t let them break you.  You are wild. You deserve to be free!

Oh yes, “THEY” will keep trying. They will push you, prod you, get in the way, annoy you, do anything to get in the way of your work.  Eventually they are going to give up on you, and think you are a lost cause.  It’s the greatest gift they can ever give to you.

Until then they’re going to keep trying to tame you. And you’re not going to give up.

Promise me you’re not going to give up. Say to yourself:

I promise I’m always going to be wild. Wild and Free.

~ Heidi

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P.S. JS Ohlander posted an interesting post about a very important concept for you creatives out there: Producing VS Consuming. Very thoughtful in-depth article. Check it out.

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