Awkwardness

When you start doing anything new, there is a moment of awkwardness.

You learned to walk when you were little…you fell down, you got back up again.  Can you accept falling down again now that you’re all grown up?

The ability to accept temporary awkwardness is one of the greatest abilities of any creative professional.  No matter what you do, you have to be willing to move through the learning of new skills and abilities to reach towards Mastery.  If you are willing to push through the stage of awkwardness, then you have the ability to step up to greatness.

I know many very creative people who keep being stuck in their old ways because it feels comfortable.  Comfortable is a nice cozy feeling. When it comes to creativity it is a security blanket.  But you had better yank that blanket away and burn it.  Get yourself uncomfortable, or you’ll end up like these people.

  • The musician who stays with the punk rock scene, yet secretly yearns to go to Nashville and record a country album
  • The artist who paints portraits but feels revolted by portraits.  She wants to sculpt instead
  • The mom who wants to go back to work but likes not having to answer to a boss.  She secretly likes how being a stay-at-home mom is easy compared to going back to work.
  • The graphic designer who is still using outdated Adobe because they’re afraid to learn new software.

Are you comfortable right now?  Are you stuck in your ways?

If you become too comfortable, you crumble. You stagnate. Your creativity will decline faster than osteoporosis.

I am totally in a state of complete awkwardness right now.  I mentioned on Twitter a few weeks ago that I feel like I am back in high school...I am learning so many new things right now.  I just switched over from 10 years in the PC world to Mac.  Going from no smartphone to iPhone.  New software.  It feels like new everything.

I could just give up, and go back to my PC, but that wouldn’t be creatively rewarding. I know that this is the path I must go through right now. It was hard at first, but it feels better after awhile. I know it will feel nice when I feel “comfortable” with everything I am learning right now.

But I know better. Once I feel comfortable I know it is a sign I need to find out where to take my learning next.

I ask you:   Are you willing to be awkward in return for learning new skills and becoming great at what you do?

If you’re not willing to be awkward now…you just may end up living in awkward infinity as you loose touch with yourself, society and the rest of the world…just like the cat guy in the photo above. You’ve been warned..

~ Heidi

[photo via the web, source unknown]

Are You Fighting for Your Creativity?

Are You Fighting for Your Creativity?

They are mad at me.  Again.

Multiple people in my life, all wanting me to change.

They can feel it.  They can feel that I am fighting for my creativity.

What I realized tonight is that not only am I fighting for my creativity, I am fighting for my Life.

And it frightens them.

Are you in a similar situation?  Can you feel the battle going on?

Are you fighting for your creativity too?

Some people want me to have ” a normal schedule”. Some of them want me to quit writing and “get a real job”. And some of them just want me to sit in their living room and babysit them as they watch the Food Network.

Right now I am working on finding out how to be creative again. I used to have my own way of working, my own writing style, but last year I was left with an emotional Tsunami. So I have to begin again. Entirely from scratch.

I know I can seem like brassy bitch right now. I don’t care. I know I am in the fight for getting my creative life back, and I’m not letting go.  As JS put it tonight, I am a wild animal being threatened to go back into the cage of obscurity.  Well… I’m not going.

I can tell, you’re just like me – You are wild too! You have dreams inside of you, wild dreams yearning to break out. You have to create. It wants to come out.  You have a life to live, the life you’ve always wanted, and Dammit you’re going to live it!

The most important thing you can do is keep holding on to your creativity. Hold on to your dreams, your ideal life.  Don’t let them break you.  You are wild. You deserve to be free!

Oh yes, “THEY” will keep trying. They will push you, prod you, get in the way, annoy you, do anything to get in the way of your work.  Eventually they are going to give up on you, and think you are a lost cause.  It’s the greatest gift they can ever give to you.

Until then they’re going to keep trying to tame you. And you’re not going to give up.

Promise me you’re not going to give up. Say to yourself:

I promise I’m always going to be wild. Wild and Free.

~ Heidi

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Why Creativity Happens at Night

Why Creativity Happens at Night

 A few highly creative people have been talking about creativity and the elusive night hours.  I recently wrote about this creative phenomenon in a recent blog post getting a lot of traffic on my website entitled Music Vampires.

In that post I was writing specifically about how music is best created at night.  Today I want to go further and discuss the theories as to why we are more creative at night:

REASONS WHY CREATIVITY HAPPENS AT NIGHT:

Why do many people feel that creativity happens at night?  Let’s explore a few possibilities:

Geographical:  The energy at night is different than the day time.  There is something very powerful about creating in a geographic area where the majority of people around you are asleep.  Perhaps all their mental chatter is resting, or better yet, tapped into the powerful creative world of dreaming…the only time most of those people are ever connected to their true creativity.  When your town is asleep, it means less traffic in the streets, and it seems like less people are around (they’re all asleep waiting to work their 9-5 jobs).  It frees us up to do what we need to create at night.

Peace and Quiet: Night time is for some of us the only time when we are not interrupted.  So many of us get phone calls, texts, massive amounts of emails, knocks at the door, UPS packages, roommates/parents/children pestering us with their needs.  The night time is the only time when we have a moment away to go and do our real work.

Left Brain/Right Brain:  I have not yet found the source, but apparently there is growing scientific research showing that the left side of our brain is dominant while the sun is up, and the right brain takes over at night.  This would suggest that there is a biological connection to creativity at night.  I certainly would agree that I feel my creative self works at a higher level of abilities during night time.

Inhibitions: Some people feel that they are able to create at night because that’s when they drink Absinthe/smoke marijuana/have sex with 3 prostitutes at once(heck, why not do all three of these at once) …or any other activities that reduce your inhibitions and therefore reduce the barriers to their inner creative selves.  Many artists have ended up killing themselves from their reckless substance habits, all because they never learned how to create without their substance of choice.  Thankfully, living life is a perfectly good “high” for me and I’ve never needed any substances to feel creative…but a little tea once in awhile keeps my brain awake to keep creating.  This need to remove inhibitions/the need for substances could possibly be the largest reason why most “regular” people are not creative.

Train Your Brain to Be Creative at Night: When you create your own time to be creative, the habit of creativity takes over and allows you to be creative during the peak hours of when you are habitually creating your best work.  I know this has been true for me, as it used to be that the best times for my work would be after 7pm. That was 10 years ago. Now I’m the most creative any time after midnight.  As your daily schedule changes, so does the time when you are most creative.

Why is it that people are creative at night?  Obviously it is a combination of a lot of things.

Are you creative at night? Let me know via email or Twitter. I’d love to meet more Night Owls and Creative Vampires out there!

~ Heidi

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Re-Evaluate Everything About Your Life

I guess this past year could be entitled just like Andrew W.K.’s popular TV show:

 DESTROY. BUILD. DESTROY!

This past year was my personal year of destruction. Some destruction happened to me. Some destruction I created.

Now with the New Year it’s time to build again.

Bigger.  Better.

Because nearly everything was destroyed around us, it gave JS and I a completely clean slate to choose what tools we want to use to rebuild.   Just like Steve Jobs and his wife Laurene had deep discussions about a washer machine, over the past month JS and I have discussed every aspect of our lives.

Big Questions. Little Questions. No stone was left unturned.  Perhaps you want to re-evaluate your life as well.

Here are some sample questions.

Ask Yourself Honestly:

  • Where should you live?
  • Where should you get your mail?
  • What do you want to own?
  • What do you want to use for hosting?
  •  What kind of websites do you want to build?
  •  How do you want to wake up in the morning?
  • What do you want to do with your day?
  • What do you want to wear?
  • What do you want people to know about you?
  • What kind of lifestyle do you want to have?
  • Where do you want to travel?
  •  What do we want to do with our lives?

And many, many more questions… You get the idea.  Be willing to be bold. Ask yourself anything.

In upcoming posts I will go into brief detail as to what we have chosen in regards to some of these questions, and why.

The intention of these posts is to share our thought process as to how we reached these decisions. What questions did we ask ourselves when considering options? What made the final choice, and why?

Sometimes seeing how someone else does something can be inspirational for something completely different.

~ Heidi

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Get Your Own Health Insurance

Once in awhile on HeidiOhlander.com I am going to talk about things that other people don’t want to talk about.

Like Health Insurance.

Why? Because I personally know people that have had over 100,000 dollars in medical bills this year.  That’s why.

Hopefully you don’t need heart surgery.  Hopefully you aren’t going to have an allergic reaction to a medication and end up in the hospital for TWO MONTHS. Two people I know. One person had health insurance.  The other person lost their qualification because they quit their job.  Now they don’t have health insurance. And they are screwed.

It is time to have my own personal self-employed health insurance.   I don’t have a J-O-B.  This website is my carrer, my passion, my life.  But I want to take care of myself, and at least have some catastrophic health insurance. Just in case.  So I don’t end up with thousands of dollars in medical bills.

JS and I are lucky – we are healthy, married, with no kids, and no kids on the way.  Deciding on a plan is simple.  It just takes time.

Getting your own Health Insurance can be very complicated, but there are a few websites that make it easy.

After looking at a LOT of websites, and viewing many,many plans, we went to ehealthinsurance.com and after hours of research decided on a health insurance plan.

Here are a few tips if you’re ready to get your own health insurance:

  •  Decide what you really NEED.  Do you go to the doctor a lot, or is this truly insurance for accidents and other rare situations? Your insurance needs will differ greatly.
  •  Research plans carefully. Look at all the conditions for each plan.  Look at the prices and what you get for each plan. We were debating between 2 different insurance companies, but it was one little difference that made us decide.
  • Vision and Dental  is rarely included.  If you need either a vision plan for glasses, or a dental plan for dental work, you’re going to have to find it with additional insurance.  In our experience dental insurance rarely works for someone who needs dental work (ie. ME!) and the worst part is that they make you wait 6 months = lame.

Remember that just a few years ago health insurance was something you had in case something happened….not for going to the doctor every day.   People used to take care of themselves when they had a cold or fever.  They knew basic first aid.  Prevention is priceless.  Knowledge is power.  Keep yourself healthy, but make sure you get yourself some health insurance.

Your situation will probably be different than us, but apparently getting your own health insurance doesn’t have to be difficult.  We applied online. It felt like applying for a credit card or mortgage, but worse because it asked all sorts of health questions. It took 24 hours, and we were accepted.

If you live in Canada or any other country with standardized health care, congratulations.  Feel thankful you didn’t have to do what we just did.

For everyone else, get yourself some sort of health insurance.

~ Heidi

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